Past Lives Regression with Brian Weiss

November 22, 2008

A vivid memory as a child was at the cabin on the river,  I saw my hand print in the cement dated 1967.  This was my happiest time as a child.  I felt free and totally loved by Marjory.  It helped me realized that I was not happy at my home, nothing bad at my home, but I don't remember a household of love, while with Marjory, that was always constant.  I remember always asking myself why Mom married John, I always got the feeling he was just putting up with us.

In the womb, I see Mom, Dad, Danny and Marjory.  I think my connection with Marjory was at that moment, Marjory did not diminish Mom's love, but only supplemented it, as this was what was going to be needed when my Father died 4 years later.  I felt love at my birth and happiness.

I see a life as an Asian boy, then grows to be a rice farmer, a very hard labor life, but surrounded by a large family.  Peaceful death, coming into this life.  I think I choose this life as one not of hard labor, but to learn to be able to give.

in the 1500, I see myself as an artist that is kept by wealth, and seduced by that.  

Clarence: Curt's Father ring,  I see apple pie, smelled wheat, and felt an over powering figure, in his mother I see only love and caring.  I feel he blames himself as being careless for his accident. Curt playing in a creek near the farm, and Curt not liking to get dirty.

Other impression of today:

Let go of anger, fear, unknown, and control.  See the soul in all, if not the present form.  Cultivate compassion.  Today is my development for tomorrow.  What I am today, is a building block of tomorrow.  

I am worthy of love.  

Dining Out

Aug 2, 2008 - Zuni Cafe - Always good. The best tables are on the main floor, especially near the wood oven. Luckily our table was in this room near the window. The was our weekend to host Brent and Lexi, we forget that a 16 year old wants simple food, and all Lexi wanted was spaghetti, without a chunky sauce. Brent loved the pork chops, I had fish, and Curt had the meat dish. It was a pleasure seeing a new experience through the eyes of a teenager.

Aug 15, 2008 - Conduit - David/Tim - Opened about nine months ago, the square room is partitioned off with conduit walls. Sitting in the bar section, it took me a minute to connect the conduit connections. The waiter was very informative, taking explicit care to describe the menu, and the chef background. The Halibut that i had was one of the best ever. The Himachi appetizer was also spectacular. Simple food with a depth of flavor. Curt had the snapper, while David the short ribs, and Tim the Pork, all was enjoyed.

Aug 22, 2008 - Una Enoteca - Denise - Dinner with Denise is always a pleasure. This is our time to refuel and get our Denise time... In the Lower Haight, parking can be a bitch, but after I dropped them at the door, and kept visualizing a parking spot, found one, and only five blocks away. Very cool spot, next to Memphis Millie, (BBQ joint). Cool design, with an open shelving charcuterie, and cheese bar. The olives with lemon zest were very good. Our server was very polite and friendly, had a variety of small plates, caponata ,beans, mushrooms, asparagus, not great but good. My dish was the polenta with shrimp, they had a pizza. All very good, I would rate the spot better than the food. Although I enjoyed the simple menu.

Sep 13, 2008 -Serpentine - Todd/Allyson - Great setting in Dog Patch, 3rd and 22nd. Love the warehouse feel, tale cealings, small dining room. The food was very good, I had a cucumber salad, that was very flavorful. Curt's arugula salad was average. My halibut entree was very good, Curt's lamb chops were fatty. I loved the place, and will go back, a great neigborhood find.

Oct 18, 2008 - Indigo - Patti/Rusty - Not as good as the first two times we ate here. We were most inquisative about the resturant downstairs that was completely in the dark.

Nov 1, 2008 - Anchor and Hope - Elise/Peter - Like the setting, food ok.

Nov 22, 2008 - Lure (San Mateo) - Patti - Loved the setting, small, narrow space. Patti and I both had the dungenus crab, this was my first, loved it.

Dec 12, 2008 - Belmont - Birthday Dinner for Patti and Kate, This is Jeff and Kate's hang out, they know the owner, the place was packed. We had a large round table for 8, very noicey. I had halibut, that was very good. Sat next to Phil Rosenburg, and got the Sony connection, which lead to us buying a new flat screen for Curt's man-cave.

Theater

Aug 2, 2008 - Drowsey Chaperon, Took Brent and Lexi. This was a perfect show for two teens, who had never been to the theatre. The show was light, with a cute narrative story, based on the main character living out scenes from audio recordings.

Aug 14, 2008 - Zona, 2boys.tv (NCTC). When we were first told this was going to be a unique production, we were not sure what we were in for, reminded us both back in Dallas, when we went to the day of theater, sitting in the basement of the theater, wondering what the hell was going on... Anyway, this show was not that weird, it was a visual show, that took mid-century scenes and reenacted them. The art to this show, was the production; the way the show was put together via video and staging. The drag actress in one scene is holding a story book, and the video projection is placed on the pages. What brought it all together was staying for the discussion following the performance. They explained Zona and the sheath, and breaking those barriers. The big bad wolf was a Central part, which was my take of "man-eat-man" world. We appreciated that the performance was less than an hours, and any more than that would have been overload.

Aug 23, 2008 - Friends for Ever (NCTC) Hated it. The play was well written, carefully crafted dialogue, however when the message of the story is that it is acceptable for gay couples to be in a "committed" relationship, but still have fuck buddies, is not the story that we see as acceptable in a year that we are celebrating marriage and commitment.

September 26, 2008 - Bronz Tales (GG) Very good production. I knew I was going to love it when we learned it had no intermission... when it starts out with one character telling the story, I thought I would be day dreaming for the next hour and a half, but it kept my interest, the actor did a great job telling his bronz tale of what is moral, and in the end Karma does settle the score.

Oct 10, 2008 - Spring Awakening (Curran) Absolutely loved it. The way they weaved an old charater story into a modern setting. It really reminds you when you were a teen, how everything was absolute, and the meaning of life was sharp.

Oct 18, 2008 - History Boys (NCTC) Excellent production for the NCTC. Wonderfully acted on the whole, saw the show with Patti and Rusty. For me, I am glad that I had seen the movie, and I might have missed some of the subelties.

Dec 13, 2008 - Zanadont (NCTC) Loved it. Well acted musical, cute show for the Holidays, and a nice spin on what it would be like in a world turn around. The lead's vocal were a bit weak, but he was still the star of the show.

Movies

July 27 - Mama Mia,(4/5) Loved it, although cringed a bit when Pierse Brosnon sang, very painful. Merril could not sing, but she acted the singing and that made it work. After see this movie, We need to go to Greece, Skopelos and Skiathos, two islands in the Northern Sporades.

July 29, (6 Hour flight from RI)
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-Mrs. Harris (4/5) Excellent acted film, Mrs Harris being the woman who killed the Diet Doctor in the 70's.

-Being Julia (4/5) Julia is a English actress in London in the 30's, who toys with a younger man, then has the last laugh on a young starlet.

- Dinner Party (2/5) Dont know how this got on my netflix. I probably thought is was going to be a gay movie. This was a french movie where a dinner party was planned each week, and the member had to invite a random person who they thought was stupid, and they could make fun of, but in the end, the "Stupid" invitee was superior to those that got their kicks from making other small.

Aug 24, 2008 - Lives of Others - When the wall was still up in Germany, this story follows the lives of Artists that are interrogated for their views of the west. The true hero is the one who was doing the surveillance. It is a story of what you believe, and how far you will go.

Sep 12, 2008 - Miss Pettigrow lives for a day - Amy Adams and Frances McDormand do a wonderful period piece performance. Follows the day of each, and how each other has an impact into their true destiny. Funny and light hearted.

Sep 20, 2008 - Burn after Reading - 6 out of 10, Expecting more, but great acting. Followings the lives of bumbling idiots who expect something for nothing, the story is a bit predictable.

Nov 28, 2008 - MILK - Superior acting, and a poiniant story. loved how they transformed Castro. It was disheartening that 30 years later prop 8 looses, in 1978 those same issues of save the children was the tactic, but lost in 1978. Penn should ge the best actor award, as he was Harvey Milk.

MPG and CJW

TV

Curt and I have gotten sucked in to this new show called "WhipOut" on ABC. It is so stupid, it is funny.

American Gladiator - I hate it, Curt loves it. I think when a Gladiator looses, he/she should be removed from the show, (in Rome when they lost, they were dead)

HGTV - Design Star

Food - Next Food Network Star

Big Brother, yes, one more time

Amazing Race, The best one of them all.

Shear Genious - Curt is actually watching this one with me, cant believe it...

Travel

July 25-28 Rhode Island , Great time in RI with Patti and Rusty. Stayed at there new beach house. The custom work is spectacular, detailed moldings and a wonder great room, (Kitchen, Dinning and Living room). My favorite is the veranda, (screened porch), and the outdoor shower. A typical day was going to the beach, me doing sudoku, Curt reading, have cocktails at 5 pm, then dinner at 8. The first night we had smores on their fire-pit with the Newtons, and Liz and Aidan Stewart. The work that Liz has done with Aidan is comendable. She is patient, and a wonderful mother. I enjoy talking with Liz because she explores the side of life that interests me, the non-typical. She is into magnets, and her advise to me was to drink more water. I have a great photo of Liz and Aidan on the beach.

It is just so easy being with Patti and Rusty, no expectation of being entertained, but just hanging out. The one day that it was cloudy/rainy, we played tennis. Rusty had this 5 point version, were we lobbed back and forth up to five points. I have not played in years, but my technique that I learned when I played in High School quickely came back, which was hit it hard and fast. Which meant I was hitting it out, but on one back hand, I hit a line drive directly into Curt's cheek. He didn't say much, but I know it hurt. (Five days later, he is still complaining of the pain in his cheek). Curt remined me, that the one time I was hit in the face by a volley ball by his brother Clarence, I dramatically run off the court and to the Men's room.

Aug 8-11 Iowa
We had a wonderful time in Iowa. Spent Friday at the Iowa State Fair, and visited with Marjory who had their trailer at the campgrounds. Marjory will be 75 in November, and Cindy is 55. I was really glad we spent time with Marjory. It is a good lesson in aging, to really make you humble for the benefits of good health. Marjory met us the the shuttle stop, and she was not walking well, and she was dizzy. But when we say her again on Sunday, she was doing much better, so that made me feel better. We played cards, and just hung out.

We spent about 4 hours touring the Fair, seeing the butter cow, and Shawn Johnson the Olympic gymnics from Des Moines. Saw the 1200 pound pig. This really is the best state fair. Eat a Pork chop on a stick.

Visited with Cindi who now works for a saddle shop. (Gwen) Their both was in the Horse Barn.

Spent the rest of the time with Tony, going to the Sprint Car Nationals on Saturday night. Growing up in Iowa, that was the last thing I would ever do, but the races were fun.

Aug 30-Sep 1 Vegas - Being about the 6 times we have been to Vegas, this was the best all-around trip. It started out First Class on Virgin America. Cool plan, and exceptional service. Too bad all flights everywhere are not like this, and only an hour and a half long. No waiting the long taxi line, we have learned to get a car service, well worth the extra money. Straight to the Wynn Resort, greated by Champagne from David and Tim, they are the best. Dinner at SW, then dancing at the V Bar. Yes, I think we were the oldest there. Too much Champagne, after Chris got a magnum. Great music.

The Spa was exceptional. Facial, Massage, and Medi/Pedi, I could do this everyday. The Fitness Center was very crowded, too small for the hotel. But the Spa was great.

The Dinner surprise for Joe was a hit, he truly was shocked to see all 11 of us. The Cher concert was great, wardrobe change for each song, much like a tv production.

Sunday dinner at the Wynn, Okada, - Superior service, she took care of my dietary needs, and everyone else loved their sushi.

Home on Monday at 3, and the trip is over... This was the best trip, because it was all first class, very relazing, and just going with the flow with Cindy and Chris.

Oct 2-5, Whistler Canada - Jeff's 50th birthday Celebration. The event starts out watching the VP debate. Not my idea of fun, but it gets better once that is over. Stuart and Carrie have custom made Converse shoes, Brown and orange, with Jeff's birthday on the heal 9-3-08. The FourSeason Resort is very, nice, and all of Whistler looks like it was all built in the past year, very new and clean, I can see why this would be a great place to ski. Jeff's Birthday dinner was at Barefoot Bistro, very good, creative food, I had the fish medly of crab, and the lobster with risoto for dinner, and a flourless chocolate cake for dessert. Very enjoyable dinner. Spa the next day, and home on Sunday.

Wedding

The wedding is set for September 6, 2008. Much to do, and many travels between now and then.

Most everything is set, we have two more meetings with Carol, this will be to discuss the ceremony, our intent is for it to only be 30 minutes, followed by a cocktail hour with violins/cello music, then a dinner with everyone seated in a single table.

Invites went out August 1, RSVP are due back on the 15th. The criteria for an invite was only to those we are the closest with. IE, we have to be able to carry on a 15 minute conversation alone, without it being ackward.

August 4, made arragements for the Limo.

I am very proud of Curt and the way he has taken care of his family, he is flying out Craig, Pam, Jackie and Tony, Bernice has declined, does not want to rock the boat with Clarence. He spoke with his mother this week, and he says it doesn't bother him that she is not coming, but I can tell in his voice, that in some way it does.

August 5, I got a call from Carrie. Giving her congratulations, and the genuine happiness she had for us. While in RI, learned that she and Stuart are moving to Boston. Disappointed for us, but happy for them that they are doing something for themselves.

August 12, ordered the Pashmina, 18. Annette from thepashminawharehouse.com

August 13, Curt and I met at 1pm at the Civic Center to get the Marriage License. We both agreed that we are so glad we are not doing the ceramony at the Civic Center. The setting at Patti and Rusty's will be spectacular.

August 16, Met with Carol to discuss the ceremony and the vows. The flow of the ceremony will be very nice, simple and to the point. I spent a could of hours working on the vows, which I think I could not have done better. Curt was away this week in Asia, so he has not spent anytime, that will be done this weekend.

September 3, Did a walk through with Billy at Patti's. With Curt and Patti's meeting planning background from PepsiCo, we easily determined that the tent did not need the clear sides, and this was the best descision made.

September 5, Rehersal day. Having taken Friday off, we started the day with a walk to Twin Peaks, Tony, Pam, Jackie, Craig, Curt and I. This was a two hour journey, that was very refreshing, and a beautiful view of the city, that one never tires of. At the rehersal, Carol the task-master asked Tony, you will not be wearing those sun-glasses at the ceremony, right...
We placed the family along with Denise on where to sit, I discovered that I first placed Denise where I would not be able to see her, that was quickly corrected, and she was in my line of vision. We followed the rehersal with a dinner at our house. Mexian carnitas, (Ray's Recipe). Very enjoyable evening, and I made carrot cake.

September 6, Wedding Day. We started the day with a journey to Ocean Beach, The weather could not have been better, warm and sunny... Picked up sand dollars, shells, and rocks - for Dominic. The limo was about 15 minutes late to pick us up. This made Curt a bit tense, and when the driver took some wrong turns, I said to Curt, just enjoy the ride.... Upon arrival, Court the Photograher was there, we finished dressing, then began the photos. Patti was gorgeous in a brown dress, and Rusty in a new dark suit. As guest arrived, we wanted them to stay out of the house, and enjoy the music by the two violins, and cello. Everyone was assembled by 6pm, and we started on time. We are both pleased with the ceremony. It was not until about 5 minutes before it all started, that I started to get a bit nervous, but once we were standing there, my focus was on Curt. We said our words, and my only focus was to stay in the moment and enjoy. I got a bit choked up, when I started reading my vows, but gained composure, and having a few funny lines really helped. Carol's words were genuine, along with here line for Mother-Earth. Cindy read the love poem wonderfully, Jackie and Tony blessed the rings, which made the moment very personal. The ceremony ended with a toast by Patti and Rusty, which was so heart felt. We value them tremendously, and are so fortunate they are a part of our life. We will be forever gratful of there generosity of opening their home for us. The group photo was taken, then the party began. After an hour of reception, Curt and I opened the door to the back patio, and greeted everyone for the Dinner. Clarence Jr. opened the meal with a blessing, and the service began. On the table were plated appitziers. goat cheese dates, figs, cheese, roasted red pepper, olive tapenade, and capenata. The second course was a plated salad, with moterella, and tomtoe, with the main entry, and sea bass and steak, with roasted vegitbles. The 4 veritrians were serverd a rissoto. The palete was cleansed by s sorbet trio, followed by a dessert bar of flour-less chocholate cake, creme brulee, chololcate lolly pops, and cookies. By this time it was almost 11pm. Curt and I made a consious effort to talk with everyone. Since these were the people who are our inner circle, this was important to personnally see that everyone was a part of us that evening. As were neared midnight, the licencse was signed, withnessed by Patti and Rusty, then proceeded to the back patio for some dancing, which ended with Donna Sommer - Last Dance. Jackie loved everyone that night, She is now Denise's sister. What I thought would be a simple request from Denise, was to borrow a blue pen from her. Since she collects pens, I thought she would just go to a drawer and pick one out. To find out, she did not have a blue pen, so on Saturday, she is at Bloomindales, asking the consierge for assistance, and buys a Monte Blonc pen...

The evening ends, the music is off, people are leaving, and there is a Hillsborough Policeman at the door. Someone had called about the noice... Its not a good party until the police show up.

The limo takes us home, we snack on chips then go to bed about 2am.

We would not have done anything different, it was a perfect night.